Random

Was talking to a friend about her blog today, so I figured that I should update mine. Its been awhile. Some big things have happened since I last posted. Well, big to me anyway!

A few weeks ago, I was wearing a size 16 jeans. They were getting baggy. So my mom and me went to Old Navy. I grabbed the jean cut that was best for my "body shape" and grabbed a 14 and then I grabbed a 12, just to see how far away I was from fitting into them, since they were on sale. I put on the 14 and the legs were a little baggy, but they fit. Then I tried on the 12, and they freaking fit! THEY FIT! I text my mom right away and some "come to the fitting room, I'm in the first room on the left" When she got there I opened the door and said do these look okay, and she said yes why and I said because they're a freaking 12! Needless to say, I bought 2 pairs! And I took a picture while I was in the fitting room, I was so happy! A 12!!! I started in a 22! So here is a little side by side. The picture on the left was about a year before surgery. No idea how much I weighed...but you get the point. 

I look like I had on a fat suit. 

This morning I finally got out of the 190's! That was pretty excited. I've been there for awhile. Which I guess now that I think about it, Its just been a little over a month that I was there. So that's really not that bad. But I was surprised that I even lost weight this week since I drank last weekend and then had a few on Thursday for the Seahawks game! 

Yesterday I went searching for some SPANX. Going to a wedding next weekend, and I need some. I found some :) They just make everything look so much better. Then I took William to Kohls to find a shirt for the wedding. He started looking at shoes afterward so I went over and looked at shoes too. I tried on a pair of heels for the hell of it. Never owned a pair, never been able to walk in them either. Well I put those babies on, and I rocked walking in them. I called William over and he said I looked fine walking in them. I was like "so I don't look like a newborn calf trying to walk" and he said no. 

Needless to say I bought my first pair of heels ever! And it was nice to find out they were on sale when we got to the cash register! So we will see how this goes on Saturday. I'll be bringing backup shoes (my boots) for dancing and the after party! William keeps talking about how he can't believe I bought heels. Well let me tell you, 84 pounds ago I wouldn't have ever tried to walk in them. 

Today we are going to the fair, with my parents and the girls. Pretty excited. Addison is so excited too. It'll be nice to feel like I can acutally go on the rides with her. 

Anyways, off to get ready for today! It's going to be a full day! Oh by the way. I am down a total of 83.8 pounds now! WOOT WOOT

GO HAWKS!

8 months

So, I realized I haven't posted here in a LONG time! 30 pounds again to be exact. I'm horrible at remember to do it. But I'm going to try toupdate more, write more of my experience than I want to write on facebook. Write more, just in case someone happens to stumble upon this page that is thinking about getting this amazing, life changing surgery done :) Maybe I can be some inspiration to someone.

So, 8 months out and I'm down 80 pounds. I'm very happy that I am averaging about 10 pounds a month. Some weeks I've gained, but I expected it. They said if you drink one night, expect to gain some that week, or not loose. I sure get "buzzed" a lot faster now, A LOT fast now. But just as fast as it happens, its gone. So I have to drink multiple shots in a row if I want to actually drunk. And now I realize I am sounding like a drunk haha. I don't drink often, just what I have noticed :)

Another funny thing, I still take too much food, pretty much everytime I eat. Idk if that will ever go away. But I'm sure I've always done that. Just before surgery I would eat it all. Even if I was full. Now though, I stop as soon as a I feel full, which is pretty damn fast. Also, its funny thinking that I haven't had a soda since December. I don't even miss the shit. Before surgery I would stop drinking it, then go back to it. I liked the carbonation. Now that I know what it does to your stomach, especially after having surgery, the last thing I want to do is stretch it back out. But its crazy to think that I don't even crave it anymore.

Last night, I went to a support group at the weight loss center. The topic was cosmetic surgery. I pretty much went into thinking that I would never have anything done. Needless to say, I left wanting an arm lift, breast lift and tummy tuck :) It is so crazy seeing the before and after pictures and how much of a difference it makes!!

I have had about 6 or 7 shirts in the back of my closet. Bought them and they were too small. So they've been hanging there, in the back of my closet. Well last week I decided I would try one on. IT FIT! They ALL fit!! I am so happy. Some have literally been there for 4 years.

William got a 2nd job, so he now has to wake up at 2:30am, I usually would get up at 4. I've decided that I'm going to get up when he does (since his alarm wakes me up anyway, and IF I fell back asleep, I would probably wake up every 10 mins anyway) But I will wake up and do a 30 minute workout video. Why not? I know I won't do it after work, so I will do it first thing in the morning when I can't make excuses. Tuesdays and Thursday my mom and I are doing kettle bell classes. We've been going since..MAY? I think. I freaking LOVE kettle bell. Everyone should try it. I'm getting some damn good arm muscles :) Its funny to flex and actually a see little baby muscle forming!

Anyway, Here is my latest picture. I haven't measured yet this month to see how many inches I've lost. I'll have my mom do that tonight.

50 pounds

This week, I was able to hit my 50 pounds lost mark! And then my body just decided to pass that right up. I'm down 52.2! I was very surprised when I got on the scale this morning, just since yesterday morning I lost another 2.2, I don't know how that is even possible.

 

I bought a new pair of shoes and had to go down a half size! Otherwise my feet were just slipping out of them. I saw myself in the reflective doors at the casino Friday night, and yeah my sweatshirts are way too huge. So today, I'm heading to the thrift store to get some smaller sweatshirts and shirts.

 

I officially weigh 220.8 and I couldn't even tell you the last time I honestly saw that number on the scale. Probably when I never weighed myself, in high school!

 

Last night for my reward to myself, I went and got a tattoo :)

I think that's about all for this week.

3 months- DONE

So, last Sunday was my 3 month mark. I didn't do a post obviously...All I could even think about was the Oso landslide and I just couldn't write a post. It's still pretty much all that's on my mind, but I figured I had better update everyone.

 

Last week I lost 3.6 pounds, I think. Also, Friday last week I decided "oh lets see if this size smaller jeans will fit" I wasn't expecting them to, but they totally did!!! So now I've officially gone down 2 pant sizes!

 

This week I lost .6  I now only have 2 pounds to lose until I have lost 50! So hopefully that'll happen this week

 

Here is my 3 month picture, I think I posted it on facebook, but I can't remember from a week ago

 

Oh btw, those pink sweats, I am finally get rid of them. They literally hang off of me now. I'm also getting rid of some sweatshirts. William and my mom keep telling me that stuff is HUGE on me. It sucks getting rid of things that were your favorite haha. Now I just have to find new favorites :)

 

Now I need to go to the thrift store to get new stuff.

holy moly

so, I totally forgot to update everyone last weekend. It was a busy Sunday. Today I'm going to be busy too, so while I have a second, I'm going to write a little something.

This week, I had 2 migraines, not sure what is causing them, but on Thursday night, I had the worst one that I've literally ever had. Made me miss work on Friday, but around 11 Friday morning it finally went away. Needless to say, I was miserable!

Last week I think I lost 2.6 pounds...If I remember right.

Anyways, this week, we went out 3 nights in a row for dinner :/ not a normal thing for us, so I wasn't sure what the scale would do this week. But I'm very happy to say that I lost 4 pounds this week! So now, I've lost a total of 43!! Holy shiiiiiiit! I can't even remember the last time I weighed this "little" I feel so awesome. Only 7 pounds until I hit the 50 pounds lost! I'm still trying to decide what I'm going to reward myself with, thinking a tattoo. But I'm not totally sure what to get yet. I kind of want something to symbolize a change, or something like that. But then I really like flower tattoo's, so who knows. I have 2-3 weeks to decide....

Last week I ordered a large women's shirt, a seahawks superbowl shirt, figuring oh I'll fit into it in a few months, since its a large women's, which I always wear mens...well I got it, and it fits me right now! That made me feel good, except eventually I'll have to get rid of it probably, unless I can shrink it!

Going swimming today at the new aquatic center in Snohomish, so I had to try on my swim suits, they still fit, thank god. But they probably fit like they should now, not as tight as they used to be. I could tell as soon as I put on the bottoms.

Tomorrow I have my 2 month check up at the weight loss center. Excited to see what they see about how much I've lost.

Anyways, I'm super tired so I'm gonna end this. The whole time change has messed me up today!! I will probably make a post tomorrow or Tuesday if there is anything to tell you about my appt tomorrow.

2 months - DONE

So today marks 2 months since surgery!! Its crazy how much has changed.

 

Last night me and William were talking, and he has been craving coke really bad. Since he gave up drinking soda, since I had to, he decided he would also. And he asked if I 've been craving soda. And to be totally honest, I haven't. Then he said something about McDonalds, and I haven't even wanted anything from there. Quite frankly, I feel like if I ate fast food like that, I would instantly want to throw up. It doesn't even sound appetizing anymore. I don't know if most people feel like this after surgery, but my whole outlook on food has basically changed. I want food that I know will keep me full for 4 hours and that will give me energy, not make me tired and weigh me down (literally) I guess I just know that all that crap won't help me get to where I want to be. Having a WAY smaller stomach also helps :)

 

Friday night Mom and I went for our usual walk. But Norma keeps escaping from her harness, and there were a lot of people out on the trail, and the dogs LOVE to just run, we let them off their leashes if nobody else is out there. So we went a different way (off the paved pathway) Basically just on a grass trail, it ended up being like a 3.72 mile walk or something. On this walk, I'm guessing because of the uneven ground, I found that my tennis shoes are giving me an ingrown toenail, least I'm pretty sure. So I went yesterday and got some new ones. The dogs were SUPER tired Friday night, thank god. We got home and they ate and passed out.

 

William wants to lose weight now also, so as long as the rain isn't bad, we are going to start going on walks Monday-Wednesday with the dogs. They will be very happy about this. Might have to get Norma a smaller harness though.

 

Today I've been cleaning the house. I don't feel like it looks any cleaner though!! I need to go through the house and get rid of stuff that we don't need/use. Maybe we can do that this week.

 

Anyways, all you care about it is my weigh in this morning! My total for the week, I'm down 4.4 lbs!! Holy mother! I haven't done measurements yet, waiting for mom to do that for me later. So I've lost a total of 37.2!!

 

Next week I'm not expecting to lose very much. Seems like one week I'll lose a big number, then the next its about 1 pound. Probably my body just trying to catch up with itself. But whatever, I'll take whatever loss I can get. Here's my 2 month pic

 

Left is morning of surgery, Right was yesterday morning (I've since got my hair colored and cut)

 

and No dog photo bomb!! And I know Aunt Linda, my bed isn't made. It never is

 

I went to the thrift store and tried on a pair of smaller jeans. Not quite there yet, but I bought them. Because I liked them and I figured, when I need new ones and I go, I probably won't beable to find any haha. And hey, for $7.99 I couldn't pass them up!

quick thought

Just a quick thought. I couldn't keep it to myself anymore. If you know someone that has decided to do weight loss surgery, please support them. Don't be an asshole about it. If we share with you what we've lost, what we are able to eat or some new awesome thing we tried and love, do NOT roll your eyes or just say "ok" We are obviously sharing this info with you because #1 we are freaking excited about it, and #2 we think that you might want to share with us that excitement.

I just don't get how people can be rude about it. Not that anyone has just told me to "shut the hell up" but people do notice small little things you do. And a "shut the hell up" might actually be better than doing the eye rolls and ignoring all the time.

It did bother me, but I just finally said "fuck it, I have enough support from other people anyway". But not everyone has all the support I have. I am honestly still surprised all I support I get. And a lot of it is from people that I would have never thought would give two shits. So to everyone that has/does support me through this life change, THANK YOU! Because it means a ton to me!

Anyways, enough about that. I'm going to just do a blog post now. May as well, its half way through the week.

I'm still having my small tiny portions. Went to Korean food on Monday night for a late Valentines Dinner. It was AMAZING. Didn't eat near as much as I would've before, and we actually had leftovers!! What?!?! We never had leftovers before! So that was nice, because I got it again the next day for lunch :) Its my most favorite food, thank god I got with Will, he introduced me to Korean food!

I've been weighing myself a few days this week, and I won't spoil my Sunday post, but I think its going to be an awesome one!! Plus, I get to do measurements Sunday, for my 2 months. So get ready for some pictures! I need to print some out, so I can start making a picture book. I'd rather do it as the year goes, rather than all at one time.

Okay, well this was way longer than I had meant it to be, but I know you guys don't mind ;) Check back Sunday!!

week 7, i think

So this week, I didn't get to walk the dog much. At all. Harnesses aren't fitting right and to honest, it pissed me off. haha. Anyways, Will thinks he can fix them or something. So we will see.

Last night we went to dinner and I was holding Addison after and I honestly don't know how the heck I walked around with that extra weight. She gets heavy!

I had my first "drink" since surgery. Just a glass of wine. It was awesome. A little more, and I'm sure I would've got drunk haha.  Kind of bummed because I found out my 2 favorite wines are carbonated. So I can't have them anymore :( boo

This week I lost 1.2 pounds. So that's a total of 32.8 since Dec 16th.

I had more to write, but I can't remember it all now, because I had it wrote and then this whole thing deleted. ANNOYING. So I'll end this here. If I remember what I was going to say, I'll post again!

1 month Dr check up

So today was my "one month" check up, and its actually been 1 1/2 months, but whatever.

Dr just asked how I was doing with food and exercise. I told her at a meal that I'm able to eat about 2oz and she said that is totally normal. The first 3 months, your stomach is still healing and is inflamed so you can't eat a lot. Makes sense.

I told her how I've started walking and how much, and she was really happy with that also.

She asked about taking my multi vitamin and I told her that I have tried but I have to basically gag them down. She said there is one, not sure if they sell it there, but its tablets and you take 3 a day, or I can just try to gag down the ones I have. I figured I may as well just try to gag these ones down, since we have them and we paid for them. DAMN IT! They are so nasty!

She said she is really happy with my weight loss, which in their books is 25 pounds. I don't know what all theirs is from, but whatever, from mine its 31.6! HAHA. Which, I was talking to Kelsey, and I've lost what Addison weighs! SOOO crazy. Addison is heavy lol, I can't believe I've basically lost an Addison!

Tonight is the support group. So now I am off to go make dinner and get ready to go to the meeting! Just thought I'd let ya all know how the appointment went today

5 weeks- DONE

So today is the end of 5 weeks since my surgery! Tomorrow I have my "month" meeting with the dr, even though it'll be the start of week 6! Whatever, I'm anxious to hear what they say about my weight loss!

 

This week, I've been eating "more" of a variety of food. I never really had any cooked veggies before when I was able to, but this week I just tried some raw veggies and they went down and stayed down perfectly fine. Which I was happy, I LOVE raw veggies.

 

For some dinners this week we had, tortilla pizza's, sooo easy, some garlic shrimp and we went to blazing onion for dinner Friday night. Mom and I shared a buffalo burger in a lettuce wrap. I had about 1/3 of it, and was full. It was delish!

 

Tonight for family dinner we are having chili. I can't wait for that.

 

This week, I decided that I'm going to start walking everyday (since I should be anyways) and our dogs are fatties and need to lose a few pounds also. I walked everyday too!! The dogs LOVE it. They go nuts and get so excited that they barely will let me put on their harnesses!

 

So today was my weigh in day. I lost 3 pounds this week!! So I'm down a total of 31.6 pounds!!! That is freaking nuts! My boss at work and Will tell me all the time that I'm literally shrinking before their eyes. When I got to my moms on Friday she told me that I looked skinny. I don't know about "skinny" but I'm definitely smaller! So crazy to me :)

 

Here's a new pic of me, I post on facebook, so most of you probably saw it, but whatever,  I like it!

 

 

notice the photobomb again, Norma this time haha

superbowl

This week I lost 1 pound. Thank god, with getting to eat basically what I want, I haven't found anything that has made me sick. I had chicken salad...a few slices of chicken and a little lettuce. Went to taco time with mom and had part of a mini soft taco. For super bowl I had a few buffalo wings. So good. And I literally only had 2 and was full!

 

I can't even think of what else to write because all my head is saying to me is

SEAHAWKS WON THE FRICKING SUPERBOWL!!!

 

So, I'll end this post here, because my brain literally can't remember anything else from the week haha. Next weeks post should be better

1 month down!!

So, tomorrow is my month/4 weeks! I'm using todays weight and measurements, easier to do it on a Sunday rather than Monday.

 

Today I get to start having "normal" food, see what I can do anyways. This morning I went grocery shopping and got a bunch of stuff. Then William and I were going to go to the Seahawks send off, but I got back too late, so I knew we wouldn't get there in time. So we went to Nomz for breakfast, he got corned beef hash and I got a side of 2 weeks and 3 slices of bacon. Needless to say, I ate one egg and one piece of bacon and was full :) I'm a cheap date! HAHA!! Then we went to Pike Place Market, we were going to do that after the send off, so we still went and did that. We weren't there for very long. Got the dogs some treats and some new dog toys, and got some special ladies some flowers. Then on the way home, we stopped at Menchie's and got some frozen yogurt. For both of us it was like $6, we used to spend at least $15-$20. Its so crazy just knowing how much I USED to eat, compared to what I am able to eat now. I'm finding its so hard to not drink while I eat, but I always catch myself before I accidently take that drink, thank god.

 

Tonight the whole family is going out to TerraCotta Red. I'm super excited!! I'll only get to eat a tiny bit of stuff, but it'll be amazing! If you haven't been there, I highly highly recommend it!!

 

So anyway, what ya'll have probably been waiting for :) the weight loss and measurements!

 

So my total weight loss since before surgery when I started my diet is 27.6!! Since the morning of surgery its 16.6! CRAZY

 

Measurements...all over I lost 9 inches!!! Holy moly. My thigh thought said I somehow gained .5 inches. Not sure if I just wrote the wrong number or what. But everywhere else, I lost 2-2.5 inches! That is crazy!

 

Lastnight William and I went to the thrift store. I wanted to look for "new" jeans, I only litereally have one pair and they get stretched out super fast and then look HUGE on me, which they were getting too big. I've always worn levi's, and I was happy that I found a pair of levi's, same style and everything. One size smaller, tried those bitches on, and they fit!!! They're a little tight around my tummy, but they fit!! SOOOOOO excited. I wore them today, and they're not baggy or anything. I must say, they look awesome

 

Now for some pictures :)

 

So this is the morning of my surgery on the left, and last night on the right

my dogs always photobomb

 

 

The left picture is 2 days before my pre surgery diet and the right is this afternoon

THIS PICTURE SEEMS CRAZY TO ME! ITS A HUGE DIFFERENCE!!!

its like, is it the angle or what. But no, I'm literally shrinking!!

 

I honestly cannot remember the last time I weighed this much. When I did medifast last year, and lost like 25 pounds, I didn't even get down to this weight!

 

I'm going to tell you what I weighed...because I'll never see that number AGAIN in my life, and while yes, its kind of embarrassing, it was my life. For a long time.

 

So when I started the diet before surgery..I'm just going to call this my total starting weight, because I lost the 11 pounds before surgery, anyways, I started at 273!! Today I weighed in at 245.4!! That is freaking crazy. The lowest I can remember being was like 247.

 

I feel awesome. And this post is SUPER long. But its my month :) So I'll end it here, Love you all:) Thanks for the support!!

 

 

SEAHAWKS

WE ARE GOING TO THE SUPERBOWL!!!!

 

Just had to address what is important first :)

 

This last week not much has happened, besides my mid back deciding to be stupid. I always have back pain, but never muscle pain my back. It's been hell. Anyway, that's my issue not yours.

 

Sunday for the game, we went up to my dad's friends house in Granite Falls. I made my jalapeno poppers of course. Its my go to. I had some oatmeal before we left, since I didn't know if there would even be anything there that I could eat. There was a lot of amazing looking food...and lets be honest, it smelled awesome too. All I had was some olives, cheese and a meatball. Dad's friend made deep fried ribs and omg did they look awesome. But I didn't have any, but I really wanted to! But I found I more wanted the food, I wasn't really hungry. The cheese curbed my hunger. And they were tiny slices.

 

We all know the Hawks won, but I still can't get over it. And I LOVE Richard Sherman! Oh man. I cannot wait for the superbowl! idk if we will have a party or what is going to happen, but something has to happen. Glad I pre requested the day after the superbowl to have off, just in case the seahawks did make it :)

 

Wednesday, I go meet with the nutritionist. Just want to make sure I'll do everything right next week when I get to start eating "whatever" I want. I just really want a chicken salad!

 

I weighed myself this morning, lost 2 pounds for the week. So that is a total of 13 since surgery and 24 since I had to do the diet before surgery! Holy moly. Next week I'll take a month picture and post it.

 

On Sunday...maybe it was Saturday, no clue. I measured my waist just for the hell of it. And I think I've lost 2 inches in my waist. I have a really high waist too btw. So weird. And in my hips, I think it was about 2.5 inches. But I'll re measure when I do pics

 

  SEAHAWKS!!!!

Support Group

So, Sunday night I had some real food!! We all went out to Mexican food so I got a child's plate (which was a shit ton of food!) I got an enchilada and refried beans. I just ate the meat out of the enchilada and a little of the beans...not even like 1/4 of what they gave me. So I brought home the rest of the beans. But man was it was good!!!

I'm finding that I'm having to remind myself to eat slow. This will be especially important when I start having regular food again, so I'm trying to start now. If I don't eat slow, it hurts. I found this out last night...wish I hadn't. Last night my mom and I were going to go to a support group meeting at the weight loss center. So I rushed from Aj and Kelsey's (I was watching the girls) to my moms, and she had a piece of fish cooking for me. Well I didn't have very much time until we needed to leave. And I ate way to fast. I had to actually pull over before we got to the freeway because I thought I was going to throw up! But I didn't, thank god. But it hurt like hell, right in my chest. UGH I hope I never do that again! BTW fish with just salt and pepper...how do I say this. Its not that great! At all.

So the support group is once a month on like the first Monday or something. Anyways, this month was a panel of 5 people that have all lost over 100 pounds. They talked about how they did it and stuff. It was pretty good. I wasn't thinking I would really like the meetings, but I'll probably go every month. Just to talk to people, and watch them shrink!!

Right now I have some eggs boiling so I can make some egg salad. I just e-mailed the nutritionist too, to ask her for suggestions or recipes for a protein. I can have ground meat and flaky fish. Well I don't know how to make those things so they're actually decent tasting. Well I do...but not for how I should be eating it now :) Battered and deep fried are on the DO NOT DO list :)

I think for dinner tonight, I'm going to have some of the left over beans, or egg salad and either butternut squash or mashed sweet potato.

 

GO HAWKS

weekend

Friday-

Friday night, we went to my moms, so Will could eat diner with her. I had some tomato soup. Then we came home and Will went to see a movie with a friend and I went to bed. Well when he got home, I could tell something was wrong. He said his chest was hurting and he had a headache, and that when he checked his blood pressure it was 190/110. So after a few minutes, I said we are going to the hospital. Called my mom to go with me, and she told me to call 911 and she would be down in a few mintues. This was at midnight. So the ambulance showed up (only took them about 4 minutes). They checked him out and said they don't think its anything with his heart because they were able to reproduce the pain by pushing on his chest. But they said they would take him in if he wanted a Dr to see him. So we decided we would let them take him in. So off to the hospital we all go. The Dr said he was having a panic attack. Which he has sometimes, but never like this. So they gave him some anxiety pills, which he didn't think was going to work. Well he started getting sleepy, like they said would happen, and his blood pressure started going down. We left the hospital about 2:30. Came home, and went to bed. All in all, NOT how I had expected to spend my Friday night.

Saturday-

Woke up, and went to the SEAHAWKS game!! It was AMAZING!! I was kind of worried of going all day without having anything to eat. Because I sure as hell can't have no burger or chicken strips. We got there pretty early so we could get our 12th man cape and flags. We got William's BEAST BURGER (only had to wait about 30-40 minutes) but he said it was good, although I don't think he finished it all. Then on our way to our seats, we found a place that had tomato soup! It was amazing! I was so glad we found it. Especially since it was so cold out. Right before halftime (when Harvin got that amazing pass) William was in the bathroom, then he went and got us both a hot chocolate. That kept me pretty warm too. But my legs and feet were freezing! So glad that we ended up being under cover, and that the wind never switched directions! After the game, I went to a play in Everett with my mom and Grammy. The play was good, but I was so tired. And my legs just couldn't get comfortable, so that sucked. Then I came home and slept. And I slept good! So all in all, I had a damn good Saturday.

Sunday-

Today we have a funeral for my cousin. Right now I'm going to make my grocery list, since I get to start having soft food this week. Which I'm pretty excited for! So I will post again in the next few days :) Have a great sunday everyone! and PLEASE let the 49ers lose today :)

GO HAWKS!

check up

This morning when I woke up, I was so tired. Like, sitting here on my laptop watching the news and falling asleep tired. I never do that. So I called work, and I slept in. Went in late and only worked half the day. Guess yesterdays "oh I'm not even tired" got me this morning.

Had my post op surgery appointment today. Dr is very happy with my weigh loss in the 9 days and said my incisions look good. She asked what I've been drinking so far. I told her everything. She said I need to get in more protein. So I told her that I tried a protein shake but it made me want to throw up. She said to maybe try mixing it with water to dilute it some, because they want me to get at least 60 grams of protein every day. So I did that for dinner. And its so much better!!! So I will be finally getting in my protein. That in itself will probably make me feel so much better.

Made an appointment with the nutritionist for the 22nd. Mainly just so I can double check on things I'll be eating when I finally start eating. I'll have already been on my "soft food diet" for about a week when I see her, so I'll make sure I'm doing that all right. I really am hoping that when I start the soft foods on Monday that I'll be able to tolerate them, and not have to wait another 3-4 days to try them again. Fingers crossed for that.

I can't wait to take off my little bandages Monday, I want to see how big/small these suckers are!

Ok, I'll make this one short and sweet. My dogs are going nuts tonight, and driving me nuts :) Night!!

Little Sore

Last night, I slept pretty damn good. Made me happy.

On my liquid diet I saw that I can have coffee still. I used to have a cup (a HUGE cup) every morning. So this morning I said, screw it, I'm going to have some. I think that was a mistake. I was fine, until I got to work, and I thought I was going to throw up. So I had some pudding (breakfast) and water, and the feeling finally went away. So I don't think I'll be having coffee anymore. Or at least for awhile. Maybe try it again in a few weeks.

My p.i.c (partner in crime) at work was sick today. So I was all by myself. Wasn't too sure how that would go. But I did pretty good, and I lasted all day. Wasn't too tired or sore at the end of the day. YAY!!

When I got off, I went to Winco and got some greek yogurt. Since I'm dumb and thought my list said "sugar free greek yogurt" which btw, you will NOT find. Then I go to e-mail the nutritionist last night to ask her what brand to look for, and I look again and see that I need FAT FREE not sugar free....stupid stupid me. So I'm going to try that tomorrow for breakfast. The protein will probably give me a little more energy :) And I got stuff to make William some dinner. Came home, did the dishes (the sink is now full since I've made him dinner, never ending cycle)

For my dinner, I tried to do broccoli cheddar soup, and blended it up. 2nd MAJOR mistake for the day. Blended it make it all foamy and NASTY. do NOT do this! Needless to say, down the drain that went. So I opted for some pudding and apple juice.

After I had my dinner, I went to make William's dinner. I left my apple juice in the living room. When I came back....it was all gone. Pretty sure it was Norma. When William's dad was here over Christmas he left coffee with milk on the end table and I found her drinking it. So pretty sure we can't leave cups of stuff around her anymore.

I'm making William "garlic cheese chicken" idk if it'll be good, but the picture on pinterest looked amazing! And I'm making a lot of it, so I hope we don't have to throw it out.

On pinterest I'm trying to look for recipes that I think I'll be able to use next week, or when I can start eating normal. Can I just say, I REALLY want a chicken salad! It sounds so good right now. Funny how I feel like my "cravings" have already changed. I want fresh good things. At least at the moment. I feel like a burger would just weigh me down. Although if you saw the "beast mode" one I posted on facebook, that my friends, looks amazing :)

Tomorrow I go for my post op surgery appointment. So I will be sure to update everyone tomorrow. Going to make an appointment to see the nutritionist also, just so I can verify foods etc that I'll beable to have.

OHHH next week, I can have chili. So my WONDERFUL mother (wink wink) is going to make me homemade chili. I can't wait!!!

That's all for today. Sorry so long, but yesterday you got a short one. So I had to do a long one

Also, I wasn't going to post a pic yet..but why the hell not. My mom thinks you can tell a difference and William says he can tell (but I think he's supposed to say that, being my husband and all)

 

My shirt in the left pic is baggy and obviously the one on the right isn't loose. So I think from now on, I will wear fitting clothes. I think it helps better. Idk if you can tell anything, but figured I would share a picture either way :) And don't mind the way I look..it was 4am in the right picture!

First day back at work

I haven't posted in a few days...whoops.

Well yesterday, I went grocery shopping with my mom. That kind of wore me out. But I made it. Was a good walk. Then had family dinner with everyone. We got some bad news yesterday, on of my cousins passed away. RIP Becky.

Today, I went back to work. I lasted most of the day, the last half hour I had to out and sleep in my car. I was wiped out. But I was glad I made it most of the day at least. I took some pictures so I have them to compare with the morning of my surgery. Haven't compared them yet though haha.

When I weighed myself this morning (I'm trying to figure out if I should stop weighing everyday, and just weigh on Monday's) I have lost a total of, since the 16th when I started my pre surgery diet, 20 pounds!! I was shocked!

I can't wait until next week, I can start having food. Ground meat, cottage cheese, eggs etc. I'm pretty much ready for it :)

I'm sure I have more that I could write, but I'm going to bed :) Night everyone!! <3

sick of my couch

I was super tired lastnight, so I didn't make a post. I've been pretty tired, hoping that's gone by Monday when I go back to work.

Went  and got our nails done yesterday, and that was really nice. Then came home...and sat on the couch watching Food Network. Around 5:30 Will and I went to my parents, so he could eat dinner with my mom...and I had some tomato soup. Wasn't able to "eat" much, but I had some, and it was pretty damn good. I'm pretty much sick of water and Gatorade at this point. Then played some games of dice for a little bit, came home because I was getting tired.

When I got into my car to come home I moved a weird way and it hurt my stomach pretty good. Then William went over a bump and it hurt again. But after that I was all good.

Got home and laid on the couch, Will went to bed, I sat and watched tv for a little bit. Then put back the recliner, and slept for like 4 hours. Woke up at about 2am and almost starting crying because I couldn't get comfortable and couldn't fall back asleep. So I got up, went to the bathroom and said screw it, I'm gonna try to just lay on the couch (last time I did this I felt like throwing up) but I finally was able to find a comfortable position and I slept pretty good. Norma and Walter weren't very happy, because they couldn't sleep RIGHT next to me. Tonight, I'm gonna try to stack up pillows on our bed and see if I can sleep in there. Fingers are crossed.

When I woke up this morning I felt like I was already ready for a nap. So tired. Woke up, let dogs out, fed them (which is hell to bend down, but I'm getting better at it) turned on tv for an hour or two...then took a nap. Woke up and my house smelled AMAZING because Will went to the store so he could make me some home made chicken broth. I can't wait until it's done.

Made William go on a walk with me, so we took the dogs. Thank god Walter doesn't pull like the other two, so I was able to hold onto him.

Now I'm just sitting here watching food network again. OHHH on tv today they made "garlic mashed cauliflower" and I'm totally making that when I get to eat! It looked AMAZING

Day 4 going strong

Today I was able to start my "full liquid diet" so when I woke up, I made some raspberry jello, chocolate pudding and those are both still sitting in the fridge...probably will try them tomorrow. I took some home made apple sauce my mom and I made over summer and warmed it up and blended it all up good, and it was AMAZING. Not that I can eat much of it...maybe about 2 spoon fulls in 10 minutes. But its still so good. Its just so weird eating, and I'm not even hungry. I just know that I should be having something, so I do. But I've found if I do eat a little too fast, it hurts. And it hurts more in my chest than anything else. I'm guessing its because too much is trying to go down at once.

I put in a refill for my pain meds this morning, when William went to go pick them up, they weren't there. And they didn't have the order. They're hoping they will have it in the morning. So we will see, until then I just do Tylenol, and if that works, then I won't even go get the pain meds.

Addison came over today at about noon and she said "Tina, I'm here to take you for a walk" so her and I went on a walk, about 30 minutes.

there's my little personal trainer with crazy hair

 

Made my mom and William dinner tonight, blt's. They smelled amazing, and I'm not going to lie, I really wanted a piece of bacon. Soon enough I'll get a piece of it! You can bet your ass on that one. After I had Will take me to the store, because I haven't gone "#2" although I don't know how they expect you to do that when you literally haven't had food in 4 days. So I got some pills, guess I'll see if they work.

 

Tomorrow morning me and my mom are going to get manicure and pedicures. So my first "outing" And it is true when I say my husband loves me. He shaved my legs for me tonight, so they're not all hairy for the ladies tomorrow (haha) My incisions are right in a spot where it hurts to bend down, so thank god for him being able to shave them.

 

Dogs are still my little nurses. Norma doesn't leave my side at night, at all. I'm trying to get Walter and Penelope used to not being on my stomach, they keep wanting to all be on top of me. So at times I have Penelope between my legs, Walter on my lap and Norma right next to my side. Its a bit ridiculous! But they love their momma :) 

For some reason today, I've been SUPER tired. I probably could've slept all damn day if I would've let myself. That's pretty much all that happened today, nothing too exciting, but I like doing this blog. Letting people know what is going on with me!! I don't take much time to do stuff for myself, so I'm taking a little time to do this every night. For now...

NIGHT NIGHT all!! And again, thank for all the support, it means more than you will ever know

New Years Day

Today, everytime I sit up and get off the couch, my stomach hurts a little. But once I'm up and moving around its better. Just hurts at first.

I was able to drink a lot more today, and Gatorade is WAY better than water!! And I've drank 2 things of chicken broth, yesterday I don't think I even was able to drink one. Its definitely a lot harder when you drink about 1 teaspoon at a time. If I drink too fast/too much at once, I have reflux where it just doesn't all go into my stomach, so I basically feel it go back up into my throat, then it goes down.

My mom and I walked to the end of her road twice today, and I'm so glad we are supposed to walk. It makes me feel a lot better. Yesterday when we walked, is when my shoulders would really start to hurt. Today that wasn't the case, thank god! They only started to hurt once today, and my heating pad helped that go away.

My dogs were wonderful nurses lastnight, after all the damn fireworks stopped and they quit barking and growling (around 1-2am) so I could finally sleep. Then they let me sleep until about 8:30, which is NOT normal. They usually have me up around 7am.

I can't wait until the bandages fall off, they say it can take about 2 weeks. So I can see how big the incisions are. Only one of them is bruised up pretty good.

I noticed today, that I actually haven't even craved food. AT ALL! Its so weird to not be hungry or want to eat anything. The chicken broth tastes AMAZING though. William said if he's off Friday, hes going to make me some homemade chicken broth :)

Tomorrow I get to start my "full liquid diet" so I can have apple sauce, yogurt, fruit juice, jello, pudding and thin soups. And I'm on that diet until week 3, then I start having foods I can mash up with a fork, so like eggs and stuff.

Anyway, Just thought I would keep ya'll updated about today. I might or might not update tomorrow..we will see :) have a good night everyone!