1 month down!!

So, tomorrow is my month/4 weeks! I'm using todays weight and measurements, easier to do it on a Sunday rather than Monday.

 

Today I get to start having "normal" food, see what I can do anyways. This morning I went grocery shopping and got a bunch of stuff. Then William and I were going to go to the Seahawks send off, but I got back too late, so I knew we wouldn't get there in time. So we went to Nomz for breakfast, he got corned beef hash and I got a side of 2 weeks and 3 slices of bacon. Needless to say, I ate one egg and one piece of bacon and was full :) I'm a cheap date! HAHA!! Then we went to Pike Place Market, we were going to do that after the send off, so we still went and did that. We weren't there for very long. Got the dogs some treats and some new dog toys, and got some special ladies some flowers. Then on the way home, we stopped at Menchie's and got some frozen yogurt. For both of us it was like $6, we used to spend at least $15-$20. Its so crazy just knowing how much I USED to eat, compared to what I am able to eat now. I'm finding its so hard to not drink while I eat, but I always catch myself before I accidently take that drink, thank god.

 

Tonight the whole family is going out to TerraCotta Red. I'm super excited!! I'll only get to eat a tiny bit of stuff, but it'll be amazing! If you haven't been there, I highly highly recommend it!!

 

So anyway, what ya'll have probably been waiting for :) the weight loss and measurements!

 

So my total weight loss since before surgery when I started my diet is 27.6!! Since the morning of surgery its 16.6! CRAZY

 

Measurements...all over I lost 9 inches!!! Holy moly. My thigh thought said I somehow gained .5 inches. Not sure if I just wrote the wrong number or what. But everywhere else, I lost 2-2.5 inches! That is crazy!

 

Lastnight William and I went to the thrift store. I wanted to look for "new" jeans, I only litereally have one pair and they get stretched out super fast and then look HUGE on me, which they were getting too big. I've always worn levi's, and I was happy that I found a pair of levi's, same style and everything. One size smaller, tried those bitches on, and they fit!!! They're a little tight around my tummy, but they fit!! SOOOOOO excited. I wore them today, and they're not baggy or anything. I must say, they look awesome

 

Now for some pictures :)

 

So this is the morning of my surgery on the left, and last night on the right

my dogs always photobomb

 

 

The left picture is 2 days before my pre surgery diet and the right is this afternoon

THIS PICTURE SEEMS CRAZY TO ME! ITS A HUGE DIFFERENCE!!!

its like, is it the angle or what. But no, I'm literally shrinking!!

 

I honestly cannot remember the last time I weighed this much. When I did medifast last year, and lost like 25 pounds, I didn't even get down to this weight!

 

I'm going to tell you what I weighed...because I'll never see that number AGAIN in my life, and while yes, its kind of embarrassing, it was my life. For a long time.

 

So when I started the diet before surgery..I'm just going to call this my total starting weight, because I lost the 11 pounds before surgery, anyways, I started at 273!! Today I weighed in at 245.4!! That is freaking crazy. The lowest I can remember being was like 247.

 

I feel awesome. And this post is SUPER long. But its my month :) So I'll end it here, Love you all:) Thanks for the support!!

 

 

SEAHAWKS

WE ARE GOING TO THE SUPERBOWL!!!!

 

Just had to address what is important first :)

 

This last week not much has happened, besides my mid back deciding to be stupid. I always have back pain, but never muscle pain my back. It's been hell. Anyway, that's my issue not yours.

 

Sunday for the game, we went up to my dad's friends house in Granite Falls. I made my jalapeno poppers of course. Its my go to. I had some oatmeal before we left, since I didn't know if there would even be anything there that I could eat. There was a lot of amazing looking food...and lets be honest, it smelled awesome too. All I had was some olives, cheese and a meatball. Dad's friend made deep fried ribs and omg did they look awesome. But I didn't have any, but I really wanted to! But I found I more wanted the food, I wasn't really hungry. The cheese curbed my hunger. And they were tiny slices.

 

We all know the Hawks won, but I still can't get over it. And I LOVE Richard Sherman! Oh man. I cannot wait for the superbowl! idk if we will have a party or what is going to happen, but something has to happen. Glad I pre requested the day after the superbowl to have off, just in case the seahawks did make it :)

 

Wednesday, I go meet with the nutritionist. Just want to make sure I'll do everything right next week when I get to start eating "whatever" I want. I just really want a chicken salad!

 

I weighed myself this morning, lost 2 pounds for the week. So that is a total of 13 since surgery and 24 since I had to do the diet before surgery! Holy moly. Next week I'll take a month picture and post it.

 

On Sunday...maybe it was Saturday, no clue. I measured my waist just for the hell of it. And I think I've lost 2 inches in my waist. I have a really high waist too btw. So weird. And in my hips, I think it was about 2.5 inches. But I'll re measure when I do pics

 

  SEAHAWKS!!!!

Support Group

So, Sunday night I had some real food!! We all went out to Mexican food so I got a child's plate (which was a shit ton of food!) I got an enchilada and refried beans. I just ate the meat out of the enchilada and a little of the beans...not even like 1/4 of what they gave me. So I brought home the rest of the beans. But man was it was good!!!

I'm finding that I'm having to remind myself to eat slow. This will be especially important when I start having regular food again, so I'm trying to start now. If I don't eat slow, it hurts. I found this out last night...wish I hadn't. Last night my mom and I were going to go to a support group meeting at the weight loss center. So I rushed from Aj and Kelsey's (I was watching the girls) to my moms, and she had a piece of fish cooking for me. Well I didn't have very much time until we needed to leave. And I ate way to fast. I had to actually pull over before we got to the freeway because I thought I was going to throw up! But I didn't, thank god. But it hurt like hell, right in my chest. UGH I hope I never do that again! BTW fish with just salt and pepper...how do I say this. Its not that great! At all.

So the support group is once a month on like the first Monday or something. Anyways, this month was a panel of 5 people that have all lost over 100 pounds. They talked about how they did it and stuff. It was pretty good. I wasn't thinking I would really like the meetings, but I'll probably go every month. Just to talk to people, and watch them shrink!!

Right now I have some eggs boiling so I can make some egg salad. I just e-mailed the nutritionist too, to ask her for suggestions or recipes for a protein. I can have ground meat and flaky fish. Well I don't know how to make those things so they're actually decent tasting. Well I do...but not for how I should be eating it now :) Battered and deep fried are on the DO NOT DO list :)

I think for dinner tonight, I'm going to have some of the left over beans, or egg salad and either butternut squash or mashed sweet potato.

 

GO HAWKS

weekend

Friday-

Friday night, we went to my moms, so Will could eat diner with her. I had some tomato soup. Then we came home and Will went to see a movie with a friend and I went to bed. Well when he got home, I could tell something was wrong. He said his chest was hurting and he had a headache, and that when he checked his blood pressure it was 190/110. So after a few minutes, I said we are going to the hospital. Called my mom to go with me, and she told me to call 911 and she would be down in a few mintues. This was at midnight. So the ambulance showed up (only took them about 4 minutes). They checked him out and said they don't think its anything with his heart because they were able to reproduce the pain by pushing on his chest. But they said they would take him in if he wanted a Dr to see him. So we decided we would let them take him in. So off to the hospital we all go. The Dr said he was having a panic attack. Which he has sometimes, but never like this. So they gave him some anxiety pills, which he didn't think was going to work. Well he started getting sleepy, like they said would happen, and his blood pressure started going down. We left the hospital about 2:30. Came home, and went to bed. All in all, NOT how I had expected to spend my Friday night.

Saturday-

Woke up, and went to the SEAHAWKS game!! It was AMAZING!! I was kind of worried of going all day without having anything to eat. Because I sure as hell can't have no burger or chicken strips. We got there pretty early so we could get our 12th man cape and flags. We got William's BEAST BURGER (only had to wait about 30-40 minutes) but he said it was good, although I don't think he finished it all. Then on our way to our seats, we found a place that had tomato soup! It was amazing! I was so glad we found it. Especially since it was so cold out. Right before halftime (when Harvin got that amazing pass) William was in the bathroom, then he went and got us both a hot chocolate. That kept me pretty warm too. But my legs and feet were freezing! So glad that we ended up being under cover, and that the wind never switched directions! After the game, I went to a play in Everett with my mom and Grammy. The play was good, but I was so tired. And my legs just couldn't get comfortable, so that sucked. Then I came home and slept. And I slept good! So all in all, I had a damn good Saturday.

Sunday-

Today we have a funeral for my cousin. Right now I'm going to make my grocery list, since I get to start having soft food this week. Which I'm pretty excited for! So I will post again in the next few days :) Have a great sunday everyone! and PLEASE let the 49ers lose today :)

GO HAWKS!

check up

This morning when I woke up, I was so tired. Like, sitting here on my laptop watching the news and falling asleep tired. I never do that. So I called work, and I slept in. Went in late and only worked half the day. Guess yesterdays "oh I'm not even tired" got me this morning.

Had my post op surgery appointment today. Dr is very happy with my weigh loss in the 9 days and said my incisions look good. She asked what I've been drinking so far. I told her everything. She said I need to get in more protein. So I told her that I tried a protein shake but it made me want to throw up. She said to maybe try mixing it with water to dilute it some, because they want me to get at least 60 grams of protein every day. So I did that for dinner. And its so much better!!! So I will be finally getting in my protein. That in itself will probably make me feel so much better.

Made an appointment with the nutritionist for the 22nd. Mainly just so I can double check on things I'll be eating when I finally start eating. I'll have already been on my "soft food diet" for about a week when I see her, so I'll make sure I'm doing that all right. I really am hoping that when I start the soft foods on Monday that I'll be able to tolerate them, and not have to wait another 3-4 days to try them again. Fingers crossed for that.

I can't wait to take off my little bandages Monday, I want to see how big/small these suckers are!

Ok, I'll make this one short and sweet. My dogs are going nuts tonight, and driving me nuts :) Night!!

Little Sore

Last night, I slept pretty damn good. Made me happy.

On my liquid diet I saw that I can have coffee still. I used to have a cup (a HUGE cup) every morning. So this morning I said, screw it, I'm going to have some. I think that was a mistake. I was fine, until I got to work, and I thought I was going to throw up. So I had some pudding (breakfast) and water, and the feeling finally went away. So I don't think I'll be having coffee anymore. Or at least for awhile. Maybe try it again in a few weeks.

My p.i.c (partner in crime) at work was sick today. So I was all by myself. Wasn't too sure how that would go. But I did pretty good, and I lasted all day. Wasn't too tired or sore at the end of the day. YAY!!

When I got off, I went to Winco and got some greek yogurt. Since I'm dumb and thought my list said "sugar free greek yogurt" which btw, you will NOT find. Then I go to e-mail the nutritionist last night to ask her what brand to look for, and I look again and see that I need FAT FREE not sugar free....stupid stupid me. So I'm going to try that tomorrow for breakfast. The protein will probably give me a little more energy :) And I got stuff to make William some dinner. Came home, did the dishes (the sink is now full since I've made him dinner, never ending cycle)

For my dinner, I tried to do broccoli cheddar soup, and blended it up. 2nd MAJOR mistake for the day. Blended it make it all foamy and NASTY. do NOT do this! Needless to say, down the drain that went. So I opted for some pudding and apple juice.

After I had my dinner, I went to make William's dinner. I left my apple juice in the living room. When I came back....it was all gone. Pretty sure it was Norma. When William's dad was here over Christmas he left coffee with milk on the end table and I found her drinking it. So pretty sure we can't leave cups of stuff around her anymore.

I'm making William "garlic cheese chicken" idk if it'll be good, but the picture on pinterest looked amazing! And I'm making a lot of it, so I hope we don't have to throw it out.

On pinterest I'm trying to look for recipes that I think I'll be able to use next week, or when I can start eating normal. Can I just say, I REALLY want a chicken salad! It sounds so good right now. Funny how I feel like my "cravings" have already changed. I want fresh good things. At least at the moment. I feel like a burger would just weigh me down. Although if you saw the "beast mode" one I posted on facebook, that my friends, looks amazing :)

Tomorrow I go for my post op surgery appointment. So I will be sure to update everyone tomorrow. Going to make an appointment to see the nutritionist also, just so I can verify foods etc that I'll beable to have.

OHHH next week, I can have chili. So my WONDERFUL mother (wink wink) is going to make me homemade chili. I can't wait!!!

That's all for today. Sorry so long, but yesterday you got a short one. So I had to do a long one

Also, I wasn't going to post a pic yet..but why the hell not. My mom thinks you can tell a difference and William says he can tell (but I think he's supposed to say that, being my husband and all)

 

My shirt in the left pic is baggy and obviously the one on the right isn't loose. So I think from now on, I will wear fitting clothes. I think it helps better. Idk if you can tell anything, but figured I would share a picture either way :) And don't mind the way I look..it was 4am in the right picture!

First day back at work

I haven't posted in a few days...whoops.

Well yesterday, I went grocery shopping with my mom. That kind of wore me out. But I made it. Was a good walk. Then had family dinner with everyone. We got some bad news yesterday, on of my cousins passed away. RIP Becky.

Today, I went back to work. I lasted most of the day, the last half hour I had to out and sleep in my car. I was wiped out. But I was glad I made it most of the day at least. I took some pictures so I have them to compare with the morning of my surgery. Haven't compared them yet though haha.

When I weighed myself this morning (I'm trying to figure out if I should stop weighing everyday, and just weigh on Monday's) I have lost a total of, since the 16th when I started my pre surgery diet, 20 pounds!! I was shocked!

I can't wait until next week, I can start having food. Ground meat, cottage cheese, eggs etc. I'm pretty much ready for it :)

I'm sure I have more that I could write, but I'm going to bed :) Night everyone!! <3

sick of my couch

I was super tired lastnight, so I didn't make a post. I've been pretty tired, hoping that's gone by Monday when I go back to work.

Went  and got our nails done yesterday, and that was really nice. Then came home...and sat on the couch watching Food Network. Around 5:30 Will and I went to my parents, so he could eat dinner with my mom...and I had some tomato soup. Wasn't able to "eat" much, but I had some, and it was pretty damn good. I'm pretty much sick of water and Gatorade at this point. Then played some games of dice for a little bit, came home because I was getting tired.

When I got into my car to come home I moved a weird way and it hurt my stomach pretty good. Then William went over a bump and it hurt again. But after that I was all good.

Got home and laid on the couch, Will went to bed, I sat and watched tv for a little bit. Then put back the recliner, and slept for like 4 hours. Woke up at about 2am and almost starting crying because I couldn't get comfortable and couldn't fall back asleep. So I got up, went to the bathroom and said screw it, I'm gonna try to just lay on the couch (last time I did this I felt like throwing up) but I finally was able to find a comfortable position and I slept pretty good. Norma and Walter weren't very happy, because they couldn't sleep RIGHT next to me. Tonight, I'm gonna try to stack up pillows on our bed and see if I can sleep in there. Fingers are crossed.

When I woke up this morning I felt like I was already ready for a nap. So tired. Woke up, let dogs out, fed them (which is hell to bend down, but I'm getting better at it) turned on tv for an hour or two...then took a nap. Woke up and my house smelled AMAZING because Will went to the store so he could make me some home made chicken broth. I can't wait until it's done.

Made William go on a walk with me, so we took the dogs. Thank god Walter doesn't pull like the other two, so I was able to hold onto him.

Now I'm just sitting here watching food network again. OHHH on tv today they made "garlic mashed cauliflower" and I'm totally making that when I get to eat! It looked AMAZING

Day 4 going strong

Today I was able to start my "full liquid diet" so when I woke up, I made some raspberry jello, chocolate pudding and those are both still sitting in the fridge...probably will try them tomorrow. I took some home made apple sauce my mom and I made over summer and warmed it up and blended it all up good, and it was AMAZING. Not that I can eat much of it...maybe about 2 spoon fulls in 10 minutes. But its still so good. Its just so weird eating, and I'm not even hungry. I just know that I should be having something, so I do. But I've found if I do eat a little too fast, it hurts. And it hurts more in my chest than anything else. I'm guessing its because too much is trying to go down at once.

I put in a refill for my pain meds this morning, when William went to go pick them up, they weren't there. And they didn't have the order. They're hoping they will have it in the morning. So we will see, until then I just do Tylenol, and if that works, then I won't even go get the pain meds.

Addison came over today at about noon and she said "Tina, I'm here to take you for a walk" so her and I went on a walk, about 30 minutes.

there's my little personal trainer with crazy hair

 

Made my mom and William dinner tonight, blt's. They smelled amazing, and I'm not going to lie, I really wanted a piece of bacon. Soon enough I'll get a piece of it! You can bet your ass on that one. After I had Will take me to the store, because I haven't gone "#2" although I don't know how they expect you to do that when you literally haven't had food in 4 days. So I got some pills, guess I'll see if they work.

 

Tomorrow morning me and my mom are going to get manicure and pedicures. So my first "outing" And it is true when I say my husband loves me. He shaved my legs for me tonight, so they're not all hairy for the ladies tomorrow (haha) My incisions are right in a spot where it hurts to bend down, so thank god for him being able to shave them.

 

Dogs are still my little nurses. Norma doesn't leave my side at night, at all. I'm trying to get Walter and Penelope used to not being on my stomach, they keep wanting to all be on top of me. So at times I have Penelope between my legs, Walter on my lap and Norma right next to my side. Its a bit ridiculous! But they love their momma :) 

For some reason today, I've been SUPER tired. I probably could've slept all damn day if I would've let myself. That's pretty much all that happened today, nothing too exciting, but I like doing this blog. Letting people know what is going on with me!! I don't take much time to do stuff for myself, so I'm taking a little time to do this every night. For now...

NIGHT NIGHT all!! And again, thank for all the support, it means more than you will ever know

New Years Day

Today, everytime I sit up and get off the couch, my stomach hurts a little. But once I'm up and moving around its better. Just hurts at first.

I was able to drink a lot more today, and Gatorade is WAY better than water!! And I've drank 2 things of chicken broth, yesterday I don't think I even was able to drink one. Its definitely a lot harder when you drink about 1 teaspoon at a time. If I drink too fast/too much at once, I have reflux where it just doesn't all go into my stomach, so I basically feel it go back up into my throat, then it goes down.

My mom and I walked to the end of her road twice today, and I'm so glad we are supposed to walk. It makes me feel a lot better. Yesterday when we walked, is when my shoulders would really start to hurt. Today that wasn't the case, thank god! They only started to hurt once today, and my heating pad helped that go away.

My dogs were wonderful nurses lastnight, after all the damn fireworks stopped and they quit barking and growling (around 1-2am) so I could finally sleep. Then they let me sleep until about 8:30, which is NOT normal. They usually have me up around 7am.

I can't wait until the bandages fall off, they say it can take about 2 weeks. So I can see how big the incisions are. Only one of them is bruised up pretty good.

I noticed today, that I actually haven't even craved food. AT ALL! Its so weird to not be hungry or want to eat anything. The chicken broth tastes AMAZING though. William said if he's off Friday, hes going to make me some homemade chicken broth :)

Tomorrow I get to start my "full liquid diet" so I can have apple sauce, yogurt, fruit juice, jello, pudding and thin soups. And I'm on that diet until week 3, then I start having foods I can mash up with a fork, so like eggs and stuff.

Anyway, Just thought I would keep ya'll updated about today. I might or might not update tomorrow..we will see :) have a good night everyone!